I lost 3 lbs at my weigh in. Which would be nice if I wasn't bouncing up and down in weight and really had a legitimate loss that was below anything I've weighed before in the course of WW (Did you get that??). So that's 43 pounds lost and 29 to go. Why are you plaguing me you last 30 pounds!!!! Go away!!!! Get off my body!! You make me look disgusting.
I really am tired of being fat. I want to be thin enough that I never hear anybody refer to me as a "big girl" or "thick" or any such term that refers to my weight being more than it should. I want stupid asses, like Sarah's boyfriend, to have to think of something more creative to make fun of me for than my gut or my fat ass. They'll have to start making fun of me being a fucking bitch or being crazy instead, which I take as compliments. I want to look good in my clothes and not feel like I'm forcing my fat ass into a pair of jeans. I don't want to worry about if the shirt I have on makes me look pregnant. I'm sure no matter what I'll never be happy with my body. But I'd at least like to reach my goal weight and know that my body is at least okay. And I hope my boobs don't look weird. Or my stomach. I hope the boobs don't end up saggy and ugly and that my stomach gets smaller and doesn't just end up looking like a mud flap. We shall see.....if my lazy ass ever gets to that point. I might. I just might. I've been insulted by enough people this week to light a small fire under my ass. Hopefully that will give me the drive I need to succeed.
Here's a lovely picture my husband took of me at Christmas. One of those ones that makes you say...."Dear god I'm a hot nasty mess". This can be one of my "BEFORE" pics.
And if I ever make it back to a normal weight, maybe something like this could by my "AFTER" pic.
Alright, enough about feminine body issues. Have a great day! And feel good about yourself. I'm a negative creep!!!
6 comments:
I have been fluctuating within the same 6 pounds since christmas. it's really pissing me off too! Except in the past week I finally got below those damn 6 pounds. I lost an extra two pounds.
I just haven't been that hungry. One of the side effects of the new meds is decreased appetite. The doctor told me that and my insides were like "ALRIGHT!!! SWEET!"
But I know what your saying. I keep thinking "if I loose all this wieght, will my skin still be saggy? Or will it just go back to normal? will my boobs look like some National Geographic shit?"
I figure once I loose the weight, i'll be too elated to notice my sags.
you aleta are NOT thick or a big girl. i personaly think you look great! =)
if i wasnt married i'd sleep with you!! hahahahaha! kidding
Hahahahahahahahaha...National Geographic shit!!!! That's the best thing I've heard all week, as well as a very accurate description.
Misty-forget your husband and meet me at that hotel next to El Camps that says $10 an hour on the sign. (Like what the heck..they might as well say "Come here and have sex!!!" because I know nobody's stopping for a one hour nap or a quick shower. Give me a break!)
hahahaha dont temp me! i just may.
does it seriously say 10 and hour? thats creepy haha.
Absolutely it does. LOL!!! Dan and I saw it the other day when we were going to El Camps to eat and we started cracking jokes about how rediculous it was.
im mean seriously your right. its not like someone needs a shower or a cat nap. its a lets get it on no tell motel. everytime i drive by and see cars there i wonder.. hmmm.. are they cheating on there other half? haha i never ask myself.. i wonder if there having a good nap ha!
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